how bad one can hurt
from anothers actions.
You never realize
something you think
won't hurt so bad,
will hurt someone really hard.
I will no longer think of myself.
or my feelings
Because knowing I hurt someone else
hurts a million times more worse
than being hurt by someone.
I miss him.
more than words can even say.
but talking to him is out of the question.
Life seems as though it's just a blur.
Waking up in the mornings seems pointless.
I just want to sleep all the time.
Because it makes everything go away for a while.
and to think three months ago, I saw things falling apart.
I knew things were going to crash and burn.
but the saddest part is,
is that I let it.
I'm going to have to work on loving myself,
before I can even think about loving someone else again.