Dreams

Everybody has an untold story; They just need to find someone who will listen.

Friday, December 23, 2011

She Needs A Miracle.

At 6 years of age she was on the couch, ringing with pain. They thought it was just a growing pain but she knew it was more then that.
She was taken to the doctor.
She then foundout she was diagnosed with Perthes Hip Disease.
From that second, her life was changed insantly.
From that day forth she could not live the life of an average person.
No instead she lived a life where
She has spent countless hours in pain.
She has had countless sleepless nights.
She has taken countless pain medications.
Been to countless doctor appointments.
She knows a little to well what being poked with a needle feels like.
She has made her way around on crutches and wheelchairs.
Has been in countless people's prayers.
She has had several surgeries.
Been to the hospital countless times.
But what matter's the absolute most is that through everything, she has smiled.
She is a girl who knows how to smile when things are the hardest.
A girl who knows how to smile when it hurts the most.
A girl who is now 13 years of age, and has fought her way through all of the pain.
All of the tears.
All of the days wishing she could just be normal.
All of the times when she watched someone do something amazing with their physical body and wish she could even run without feeling like she is going to fall apart.
All of the questions.
All of the doctor's appointment's.
All of the hard times.
She is one of the most strongest people I have ever met.
She is an inspiration to me whether she knows it or not.
She makes me want to be a better person.
She truly is amazing.
And if she thinks she can't do something, or be normal.
Then she needs to look back, at everything she has accomplished,
and then look at a regular persons life, and at what they've accomplished.
She has accomplished so so so much. And I hope she knows that.
She has been through so many hard times,
But the important thing is, she stuck it out.
She never gave up.
She never said this is too hard for me.
Or I can't do it.
Sure she might of said she was scared.
Or hurt.
Or tired.
Or she needed help.
but I know she didn't give up on herself. Because she still stands strong today.
Yesterday she went in for another surgery on her hip.
It is the last option before a hip replacement.
She won't be able to even walk for a while.
Today I went and visited her up at the hospital,
and she could barley sit up in her bed. Let alone walk. And move.
As sad as this may sound...If you just look at her, and listen to her stories, and hear about her life,
You start to realize... That she was given this defect in her life, because God knew she could conquer it.
"God gives you no challenge that you cannot overcome."
I believe this. I truly do.
Because I sure know, I could not be as strong as she is today.
I could not do it. I could never do the things she does.
She may feel weak, and broken, and tired, and helpless.
But little did she know, she is a miracle.


Seeing her smile in that hospital bed, and laugh, is truly amazing.
There was nothing like the spirit in that hospital room today.
Today truly changed my life.
And the person I want to be.
I want to be a stronger person.
She has told me, that she wishes so hard to just be a regular teenage girl,
But I don't think she realizes that I, in ways, want to be like her.
She is so strong. So amazing.
For me to watch her live her life the way she does, changes mine.
I love her to death.
She is amazing.
She is Beautiful.
She is kind.
She is caring.
She is loving.
She is thoughtful.
She is generous.
She is loving.
She is great.
She is Hannah Russell.
We need to pray for her.
We need a miracle here.
Because One day,
I want her
To live
Pain
Free.
And one day,
I believe
she will live
Pain
Free.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Life in December.

This December has been one of the funnest months of the year. The family, the ugly sweaters, the concerts, the christmas season, being with the people I love. Here are a few snapshots of the cherished moments.

I became a "mother" to my teen living baby (class for school) And his name was Boston Cache Garth Alexander Shannah Snow Brown. There were several people who insisted on naming him, that's why his name became so long. It was a really great learning experience to have to take care of this baby for a week.
I got to see my best friend that lives in Lehi. He is truly an amazing person, and as friends, we have been through so much, and I am so grateful he stuck around. I know he is a person who will always be there for me no matter what.
Got to go see the lights at temple square 3 times this year!
Got to make gingerbread houses with my best friend, Hannah, and her family! So fun!
Christmas Tradition: Go up to Salt Lake, donate bags of old clothes to the Homeless Shelter, and then go to Litza's pizza for a wonderful dinner, and then go see the lights at temple square with my four best friends, Erika, Kylie, Hannah, and Brielle.
Participated in Ugly Christmas sweater day at school. Gotta Love it. (:
Spent a couple of days with Hannah, we watched christmas movies, played just dance, went to temple square, made gingerbread houses, and talked for hours. She is up at the University of Utah hospital right now getting hip surgery, and will be in the hospital for the holidays, so I spent her last few days with her before she went in. Love her to death, keep her in your prayers!
My older sister did a photoshoot for me in the cold winter air, it turned out really cool. If you would like to see more of these pictures, or more of her work, check out her photography blogg http://www.nicoletuckerphotography.blogspot.com/

I got to go to the David Archuleta My Kind Of Christmas Concert. It was an amazing concert, and if you haven't already heard, that is where he made his special announcment that he will be serving a full time mission for the LDS church. Way cool experience to be there, David Archuleta is such a cute boy, heart and soul. (:
I've gotten to spend time with this wonderful boy. Spencer Snow, he is truly an awesome guy. He makes me laugh endlessly. I love being around him. He is very special to me!



I am so excited for Christmas and New Year's! I love not having school, and being able to sleep in, and sit around all day in sweats, and party at night. I am praying for snow, it does not look like December out there! :( well, Merry Christmas my friends! #Remember the reason for the season.


Love, MellyTuck

Saturday, December 17, 2011

I Believe.

Christmas is the time for believing... so I'd like to share what I [Believe]


I believe that Your true beauty is inside of you.
I believe in miracles
I believe music can cure a broken soul
I believe in procastinating
I believe that god is there
I believe that christmas is the season of love
I believe that with god, anything is possible
I believe giving is more exciting than receiveing
I believe that a lighthouse without a light is just an empty house
I believe you wouldn't be who you are today without your friends and family
I believe that ugly christmas sweater's really aren't that ugly
I believe that you can do anything you set your mind to
I believe that it's the times when he pulls away that make you love him even more
I believe if your mind can do it, your body can too
I believe that there are real men with real virtue and integrity out there in the world, waiting for YOU
I believe that certain lyrics can take you back to a certain moment
I believe in bucketlists
I believe in memories
I believe that you have the friends you have for a reason
I believe everyone in your life is a blessing
I believe if you try your hardest, you can never fail
I believe in the power of music
I believe that laughter is the best medicine, because it never runs out
I believe that the best way to be happy is to make other's happy first
I believe that you feel good when you do something good
I believe that you should never let your prayin knee's get lazy
I believe in friendship
I believe in christmas spirit
I believe that your family will always be there for you
I believe that there will always be those people who will never like you, so you might as well be yourself.
I believe that a boy's best feature is his smile 
I believe that if someone really cares about you, they will show it, not say it
I believe that to me leggings are pants
I believe that families can last forever if you make them
I believe that chocolate really does help
I believe that it isn't you that's ugly, its society
I believe in first impressions
I believe that everybody has an untold story that they are dieing to get out, but they just need someone who will listen
I believe that shy people just need to be broken out of their shell
I believe in smiling when it hurts
I believe in faking it til you make it
I believe in getting back up again after you fall down
I believe that if you want to marry a ten, you've gotta be a ten
I believe if you scew up, you can always try again
I believe in forgiveness
I believe that the key thing is to do, not to try
I believe that if you try your hardest everyday, you'll live your days with no regrets
I believe that if a person dares to call you ugly, their the ugly one, not you
I believe that teacher's should treat you on your behvaior that day, not your reputation or what you've done in the past
I believe that playing the piano calms you
I believe that yelling at people just makes things worse
I believe if you believe in other's, they will believe in you
I believe if someone says you can't do something, it just makes you want to prove them wrong
I believe that if you smile at life, it will smile back
I believe that every person is beautiful inside and out
I believe in love

Believe in YOURSELF.

"Believeing isn't seeing, It's knowing."

Words from: MellyTuck.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Music Cures.

Music Cures a broken soul.
-MellyTuck.

If you're having a rough day, put in your headphones and put out the world.
Teenagers listen to music in all situations.
and if you're like me...
by the time you're 45 you will have hearing loss.
[If you say it's too loud. Then you're too old.]
^My motto.
I over play my favorite songs,
I listen to piano music before bed,
I listen to rap music before a track meet, to get me pumped up. [obviously]
I sing to the christmas melodies, because what is christmas without the familiar melodies?
I pound at the piano keys, and play my favorite arrangments, over and over. Practice makes perfect.
If I like a song, I will always find a way to constantly be listening to it.
Music is truly amazing.
I would like to say thank you to all those wonderful music artists from Paul Cardal to Taylor Swift to Lil Wayne.
Those who got me through those times when I needed quiet happy music,
times when I wanted to remember certain memories. Certain songs remind me of certain times or people.
Time when I was nervous, and needed heavy music to distract my mind.
Times when I wanted comfort. that I wasn't the only girl in the world that thought things. [thank you Taylor Swift, your music is like every teenage girl's diary.]

I believe music, certain songs can take you back to a certain day, time, or memory. Because that song, will never change. but the world an people will. So when a certain song plays through, it will make you remember what used to be. Sad or happy memories you will be reminded of.
Listen to music that makes you happy. sad. wild. upset. depressed. loved. whatever you would like. Whatever you feel like feeling. music can create moods.

One of my biggest music inspirations is...
J.Wride.
They just came out with a new album!
J.wride Love on the run EP
check it out on Itunes. Its a good one. J.wride is simply amazing. His music is sooo good. cannot even describe how perfect and sweet his melodies are. He is crazy on the piano keys, and the fact that it's just his voice, the piano, a bass, and drums blows my mind. He is truly talented, and inspires me. I could listen to his music for hours. and I do. Thank you J.wride!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

The clouds aren't going anywhere.

Darkness is here. Winter is on it's way. So ladies, and gentleman. Get your hot chocolate supply out. Chop your firewood. Get your hats, gloves, and scarves out of the back of your closet. Go buy a new pair of flashy boots. Find a good read. Make some chocolate chip cookies. Give thanks. Eat pie. Overuse the world please. Play some Christmas melodies. Pray. alot. Remember the needy. Be Grateful. Fall in love. Follow the stars. Roast some marshmellows. Put your shorts away for good, and put on some jeans. Why do all these things? Because the cold is here, and the clouds aren't going anywhere. This is the time to Give thanks. Give to other's. Think of other's. Be Grateful. Spend time with your family. and make memories. Enjoy the season. and all the holiday's it brings with it. Because it only comes once a year, and if you don't like the cold? Your out of luck, Because there isn't honestly much you can do about the weather. You can either complain, or make the best of it. Complaining isn't going to chang the weather, but making the best of it might even make you like the winter time. You may miss the warm sunshine. Tan skin. Swimming. Shorts and flip flops. Summer love. Carnivals. Snow cones. Happy faces. but don't worry. All of that stuff isn't gone for good. Summer will come again. So for now, just sit back, relax. Read a romance novel. Write a song. Play the piano. Stay inside. Whatever you choose to do, just float a while, and live in the moment. Not long for the future, or try to recreate the past.


The original
-MellyTuck:)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

L Y F E .

I love the days with my girls.
Today was grand, might I say.
I played with my girlies. Angela Bellitti, and Kaylee Anderson.
They are loved.
We chatted with our seminary teacher afterschool for quite some time.
then watched a chick flick; Beauty and the Briefcase. cutest movie.
Ate Homemade chicken noodle soup.
Lounged on the couch.
Put glitter all inside a highschooler's car. annnnnd my arm got stuck in the crack of the window in the process. No Big Deal. hah.
Talked about our favorite boys, and our lives.
Kaylee drove the car to take us home. She's legal! :)
ohhh the joys of being 15. YEE.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Love Potion #9 [The boy who]

You know, there's always going to be that one boy.
The boy who is [as some say] your BOW. [[Boy of the week]]
The boy who makes you laugh & cry.
The boy you can't wait to recieve a text from.
The boy who'd be sad if you died.
The boy who is the reason you smile all day.
The boy who get's you threw the hard days of the week.
The boy who you daydream about in that dreadful math class.
The reason you don't want to go to bed, because that would mean stop talking to him.
The reason you curl your hair and wear lip gloss.
The reason you spend twice as long getting ready for the day then you normally would have.
and To you he is perfect in all ways.
He smells good. all the time.
He's on the football team.
He is a sweetheart to you.
He tell's you that you are truly incredible, and beautiful. *what kind of girl couldn't resist?
He is smart, and does his homework. for reals.
He is absolutley beautiful, because *guys can be beautiful too.
And hey, he writes poetry. Why not? *now that's an attractive quality.
He smiles, and makes you smile to.
He may have flaws, but your so in love with everything about him that you're blinded to them.
He is the boy that you fall more in love with everytime you see him, because those eyes just take you in. And make you wish that love story's could last forever.
But truth is Cinderella.
Happily Ever After isn't as easy as you make it seem.
There is no godmother.
No golden carraige.
No fancy ball.
No glass slipper.
So Tell him how you feel.
Tell him you're the one for him.
Tell him he's beautiful.
Prove to the world that teenage love can last.
Prove that you can do it.
and don't let things crash and burn.
When thing's get bad, turn the page, don't close the book.
but if you are going to close the book, atleast bookmark the page.
Because a True love story
NEVER ENDS.



Words from: MellyTuck.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

She's that girl.

Right now, she seems to be the girl, that one girl who is just invisible. and she just wishes today that it would rain all day, because maybe it would wash the pain away. Her against enemies, her against friends, her against her loved ones. It seems to be that they have become one.
But she never slows down. Because she feels like when she's alone, her world comes crashing down. She feels that if she lets the first tear fall, she won't be able to stop the rest.
So she stands in the rain. Stands her ground. Stands up when everything's crashing down. Stands through the pain. Stands up when she's lost the game.
Because Everytime life gets her down she tells herself, that she came here
-To win.
-To fly.
-To conquer.
-To thrive.
-To Survive.
-To prosper.
-To be alive.
Everybody is trying to box her out, but she is not a word. Not a name. She is not a girl that a dictionary could ever define.
Every body is unique, and special in their own way. So When life gets you down, smile through the pain and dance in the rain.
When in doubt.. Remember ohh remember:
-Smile. Its good for your soul.
-Laughing burns calories.
-The tragedies of today, make the humors of tomorrow.
-If you didn't worry about love, you would have a perfectly unharmed flower. (thanks nicole tucker for that one!)
-There's a different between being alive, and living. GET OUT AND LIVE. YOUR LIFE. THE WAY YOU WANT.
-Your the one who has to die when you die, so live the way you want to live.

Words From: MellyTuck. inspired by Nick Minaj.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

True Beauty.

When you think of beautiful things, what comes to mind? Is it those skinny girls on the cover of magazines, or up on the billboards you pass as your on the freeway? Or do you think of people who donate their time, and love to others.
Teenage girls eye's will be fooled, by the skinny figure on the magazines. They will think that is beautiful. Pretty. In. What you need to look like to get some guy to like you.
Well I want you all to know, its all fake. the magazines lie.
Being insanley skinny isn't good for you. Little boys fetch bones, real men like curves. So enjoy those late night bowls of ice cream, that chocolate bar, or that 32 oz. of mountain dew.
Because: True beauty in my opinion isn't about looks. It's anyone who fills others with charity.
A beautiful person glows. You'll be able to tell right away too. They just have that spark about them, and their impact on others is huge.
True beauty is in the soul. Not the face. I've been told that happy girls are the prettiest, because a smile is a girl's best accesory.
 This world is filled with so many beautiful people. Those who love others, those who smile at strangers, those who help others, are simply beautiful.
YOU are beautiful. and don't let anyone tell you that you aren't.
The world will try to bring you down, but don't let it. When you look in the mirror, tell yourself youre beautiful, and pretty soon, you will shine.

So Remember:
Smiling is good for your soul.
Jesus said love everyone; including yourself.
and don't let the world fool you.



Words From: MellyTuck.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

The Fall Day.

Please excuse my absence.
I have been figuring out life. and how to control it.
I hadn't really had a thing to blog about.
Because I had other things on my mind.
I am happier now, but not 100% cured. but
today I'd like to make a post, about the lovely fall day.
So here it goes.

Today I claim was the first TRUE day of fall.
Proof of this?
I wore a scarf to school and my neck didn't get all hot and itchy.
I wore short sleeves and for the first time in a while wanted a jacket while I was outside.
It rained basically all day.
The clouds were gray.
It wasn't 80% degrees in the afternoon for once.
The Leaves are turning colors and falling on to the ground, I now know this because
when I walked on my sidewalk crisp, wet, orange leaves were stuck to my blue vans.
I made hot chocolate and didn't feel like an idiot.


I love the fall. The fall completes me. It makes me happy. (:



Words From: MellyTuck.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Because its when I need [YOU] the most.

When I have had a bad day,
When I am upset,
When I am feeling down,
When I am broken,
When I feel like theres nothing left of me,
Is when I need you the most.
You: as in my family and my friends.
Take me as I am.
Love me.
Be there for me.
Forgive me.
Give me time to get my head on straight.
Be patient with me.
Because when I am lost.
Is when I need your help.
Let me know Im not alone.
Give me one more try.
Let me make life right.
Let me fix things.
I will try my best, each and everyday.
for those who are always there for me,
because I owe it to them.

Thank you to all those beautiful people who are always there for me.
Thank you especially to..
Erika Logan, she accepts me for whoever I am. She will always be there no matter what I do.
Angela Bellitti, she always gives me faith. and makes me want to make tomorrow better than yesterday.
My mother, she some how just knows what to do to make it better. She's an amazing person. She makes me who I am today.
My sister, Nicole Tucker, she is my best friend, and my sister. I am grateful for her. I am so glad she is my friend, and I know she will always be there for me.
and the rest of my family, who make me smile, and I have the greatest memories with them. They always know how to make me laugh til I cry.

I [BELIEVE] that if you surround your self with good people. your life can be BEAUTIFUL.


Words From: MellyTuck.
Inspired by: David Cook

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

For the love of being a cheerleader(:

I love a good cheer practice.
I love my gym. (TNT)
I love my cheer team. (Freshman Vikings)
I love my coach. (Kerbi Durfey)
I love my stunt group: my flyer. (Bailee Cook) my backspot. (Whitney Doxey) and my other base. (Macayla Madsen)
I love having a succesful cheer practice.
I love the feeling you get after you hit a solid stunt.
I love the pain you get in your wrists from being a base.
I love the sound when you clean. (Cheerleaders know what cleaning is)
I love it when everybody claps at the exact same time.
I love when we are warming up our toe touches, and our team yells "VIKES!" when we clean.
I love when we do our routines to the music.
I love it when I am in the car and a song comes on that I have a dance to, and I do it in the car and drive my mom nuts.
I LOVE CHEER.<3


Words From: MellyTuck.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

untitled.

She's lost. She's vain.
She will never be the same, without you.
She can't fight.
Because what she has to say doesn't matter anymore.
She can't win lifes battles without you.
And its plain to see she still loves you,
but love is just a silly word.
Promises didn't mean a thing.
and so she will stand with her suitcase,
and look back at the comfortable glow of your front porch.
And for her, its back to the nicholas sparks books.
because her story has ended.
It's plain to see she cared,
but he just played a game.
I guess she just couldn't ever figure out
how to love.


Words From: MellyTuck. Inspired By: Lil Wayne

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

SHE.

Most people who didnt know her, could say she had it all. She was a cheerleader. Talking to boys came easy for her. She was well known. She had a lot of friends. She got good grades. Teachers liked her. and she went through everyday with a smile on her face. But what not everybody realized, is that her smile was out of place. She didnt really have it as good as she made it look. A smile could make a terrible day look perfect.
    What people didnt know is that she talks to boys, because she is insecure. She is well known because not everybody likes her, and when people talk about her.. it's just gossip. It might seem like she has a lot of friends, but when it comes down to it, how many of them will actually be there for her? How many actually take time to notice the smile on her face is just about as fake as it gets. She gets good grades because if she didnt, her parents would ruin her.
     She felt like nobody knew who she really was. She could never be who she really was inside because if she was, people would think she is a freak, if they didnt think that before. In a hallway of 50 others at school, she felt so alone. So unoticed. So unwanted. and so uncared about. Those who she thought were her best friends, sometimes gave her dirty looks. It's funny how people always do the things they promise they would never do. And as she sat in class, it would take everything she had to keep the tears from streaming down her face. She was one of those people who knew who she was on the outside, but her light didnt shine through. She knew too well what it felt like to cry herself to sleep at night. She too well what being surrounded by two faced people felt like. She's been called ugly many more times than shes been called beautiful. Shes forced way to many laughs, and faked way too many smiles. She's tired of hurting inside. and one day she hopes she'll stop telling herself that tomorrow is going to be the day she turns her life around, and instead choose today.

Friday, September 9, 2011

All the reasons why.

Once upon a time. There was a boy and a girl.
She was just another girl, trying to find her way through the world.
He was just another boy, living life however he liked.
It was Him. and Her.
That fit together perfectly.
Love it was. because:
She loved the way his lips felt on hers.
The way his arms clung to her waist.
The way he pulled her closer to him.
and It was the way her stomach felt whenever she looked at him.
It was way he looked at her with those dark brown eyes.
It was things he said that made her smile, and when she smiled, he melted.
It was those times when he pulled her closer and caught a faint trace of her perfume.
It was way he whispered I love you.
The way she giggled in between kisses.
The way their fingers always intertwined when they walked side by side.
The way they looked at the stars, and talked for hours.
The way he stroked her hair.
It's the way their love was.
You know, the kind of love that people would search all over the world for, just to find the right person.
She was lucky that he came into her life.
Because now
When she walks, her hands aren't lonely.
Her lips never get cold anymore.
She stopped reading all of Nicholas Sparks romance novels, and started writing her own.
She now has a reason to smile.
She doesn't stay up late at night and think about all those what if's and what could have beens.
She doesn't have to convince herself she's special, instead she's told everyday that she is.
And now, she can watch Dear John without thinking they couldn't of fallen in love that fast.
She didn't waste her time, and neither did he.
Love is what they had.

I hope one day to find love, the way they had it.



Words From: MellyTuck.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Perfect Mistakes.

Teenagers will make mistakes.

Teenagers Will:
Do stupid things because at that moment they thought it was funny.
Say things they don't mean.
Fall in love in the worst way.
Stand up for themselves.
Realize their in too deep when it's far too late.
Deny the truth.
Leave the back door unlocked.
Break the law.
Find color in the darkest places.
Could have the world but choose not too.
Look for heaven.
Come home later than they were supposed to.
Have the worst mood swings.
Over use the words I Love You.
Fight with their parents.
Give people a hard time.
Waste their time wishing.
Walk away when they should have stayed.
Forgive the people who deserve it the least.
Play their music 10x louder than needed.
Stay up 3 hours later than healthy.
Get burned by the fire.
Make the same mistakes.
Laugh til they cry.
Miss the little things.
Go through trials.
Party a lot more than neccesary.
Spend too much time texting.
Rebel from the rules.
Live their life in a way that others think is wrong.
Do all the things their not supposed to.
But all these things are our job.
Because if we did everything the way we were supposed to
parent's wouldn't have to help us with our everyday problems, screwups, and mistakes.
I believe teenagers are perfect in their own way.
and remember.
The apple doesn't fall to far from the tree.


Words From: MellyTuck.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

admiration.

If.
someone.
changes.
for.
you.

keep them.

cherish them.

love them.

remember them.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The season: FALL.

If theres going to be school.
Than there better be fall.

I hate sitting in a classroom when there's 90 degree weather outside.
When I would much rather be at seven peaks.

It needs to be fall because
I am longing to wear
my sweatshirts.
my scarves.
my jeans.
and my boots.

I lovve the fall because of the
Beautiful colors.
the crisp air.
football games.
getting cold when the sun goes down.
the leaves.
the freshness it brings.

In the fall, I tend to always make the best memories.

FALL

please come soon..

Monday, August 22, 2011

Fantasies.

He's so funny in his bright red shirt.
His smile was ear to ear
when he laughed at our inside jokes.
The look on his face told it all.
It was nice not to be so alone.
But when he gave it up so easily.
We started saying things
that were never meant to hurt so bad.
So I go, and I will not be back again.
This memory is fading into the dust.
Now you, you may remember me,
but im trying my hardest to not remember you.
We were in love,
and then we got hurt.



I guess it was just the fantasies made in the Summer heat.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

the verb: FALL.

Because of you,
I was up so high, lookin down from the sky.
They say what goes up, must come down.
well I hope you catch me,
because i've already fallen,
and there Isnt a parachute they can make for this.

I  put my heart, my soul, and my faith in this.

And it's easy to see that we were

made for this.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

My last few days spent with my new friend.

Summer is coming to an end.. and I am longing for it to stay.
I decided to make my last few days EPIC.
I found a new friend. He is such a gentle men.
My other friend, Erika, and I hangout with this young fellow. everyday.
We do some pointless, ridiculous, retarded things.
but we are making the best memories.
ever.

which includes......


                                        Walking to Gas Stations.

        
                                    Buy twinner gatoraids.

                                            Lay on the grass.

                                         take silly pictures.

                                           Wear Vans.


Friendships are a great thing.
I am Very grateful for Brock and Erika.
They are the kindest, funniest people.
I will cherish my memories with them.

Friday, August 12, 2011

How Lovely.

My mommah left to park city.
and left me with:
No bread.
No tortillas.
No snacks.
1/4 a gallon of milk.
and my little sister.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO......

oh wait.
there's someone called my dad.
ha.
:)
thank goodness for him.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

All good things come to an end.

It's always when things are coming to an end, when you realize where did the time go.
Summer has less than two weeks.
I haven't even prepared for school, fashion wise, sleepwise, and supply wise.
I feel myself getting more tired, because the thought of having to wake up at 6 am.
everyday. no choice. you just have to.
it just makes me tired thinking about it.
I didn't realize how much I loved being able to
sleep in,
be lazy,
watch glee alllll day,
go to peaks,
get sunburns,
stay up until 1 and know it's just fine.
untill I know in less than two weeks,
I won't be able to do those things anymore.

Instead it will go back to
Piano lessons,
studying for tests,
late night procrastinations,
homework,
waking up early,
going to bed at a decent time,
trying hard not to fall asleep in class,
unfair teachers,
classroom rules.

oh summer, could you please stay forever?
I would love that.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Just my luck right?

I woke up
got ready for cheer.
was walking out the door.
then I got a text from my coach:
girls, practice is canceled.

great. so I woke up early for nothing?
summers almost over! there's no time for messing around!

LIVE IT UP. MAKE IT EPIC. 13 days. left..

Sunday, August 7, 2011

2 sports. 1 Team.

Yesterday was an amazing day.
My cheer team helped the Freshman football team with a run. 4.6 miles.
And it warms my heart that they all fell in love with our cheer team.
And the football players Facebook status's were all hilarious later that day.
talking about the cheerleaders, and how great they were.
I couldn't believe it.
With this being my first year doing cheer I was so happy with this.
In the past I've heard that the football team didn't like the cheer team.
and they didn't get along.
but why? they were rooting for the same thing.
A win.

This was the first time the football team had ever invited the cheerleaders to do something with them
I think both the cheerleaders, and the football players never took the time before, to get to know one another.

And it is now that I realize,
they don't like us just because we have a uniform on.
that isn't the case.
because years in the past they didn't like the cheer team, just because they were cheerleaders.
They liked us because we bonded with them,
Helped them out, handed them water and cheered them on
when they were running painfully.
We all got to know eachother on the same field yesterday morning.
we played around, talked and laughed.
Thank you's were exchanged.
Now both our teams know eachother for a person.
not a name.
or a reputation.
We know eachother for who we are.
I'm so excited for this years season.
I'm so excited to share the field with them,
not just because we have to,
but because we want to.

It's going to be a great season. (:

Friday, August 5, 2011

We are all still children at heart

age? 14 in my head. 6 in my heart.

Yesterday, I walked and played around the town, with no care in the world.

I went from having cheer, to sitting at a park in the rain, than had sword fights like a little girl.
walked a couple of miles to my dear friends house. Because im little, and can't drive yet.
We went to an Owls Baseball game. Played some night games, and talked with some dear friends of mine.

I got a scrape on my knee, and it brought back memories of being a little girl. Playing at parks, having sword fights, and playing night games all brought back childhood memories for me.

Even though I'm 14, I can still play games

as if I'm a little girl.

As if I have no care in the world. (:

Thursday, August 4, 2011

New enjoyments?

I have a new enjoyment.

and it is listening to rap.

some rap is slimy. but some rap is really pretty awesome!

yes, my mother isn't real happy about this one.

Every night, when I am laying in my bed,

Attempting sleep,

I listen to this good music.

I love it.

The beat.

The way the words rhyme.

And flow together.

My goal is to be able to rap

a song

by the end of the summer.

:)

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

LoveStory.

As you run along the grassline,
playing night games
with all the little boys and girls,
you cut your hand on a mailbox,
and who cleans up your lovely gash?
Me.
I sat there under the streetlight
looking down at your hand,
telling you that you are retarded.
over and over.
and you say to me,
this is kind of cute.


I guess we aren't strangers anymore.

As we sit on the sidewalk
with Darkness all around us
You look up at the sky
And you say to me,
look at the stars..
They are Beautiful.
Kind of like you.
And right then I thought to myself.
Yes, he's a keeper.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

What Love Really Means.



              He cries in the corner where nobody sees

          He’s the kid with the story no one would believe

       He prays every night “Dear God won’t you please...

     Could you send someone here who will love me?”


                  Who will love me for me?

          Not for what I have done or what I will become

                         Who will love me for me?

            ‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

        What love really means, what love really means


            Her office is shrinking a little each day

       She’s the woman whose husband has run away

           She’ll go to the gym after working today

    Maybe if she was thinner then he would’ve stayed

                                And she says…


         Who will love me for me?

                                              
    Not for what I have done or what I will become

                Who will love me for me?

        ‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

    What love really means what love really means



                He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
      He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done

         He utters a cry from the depths of his soul

         “Oh Lord, forgive me. I wanna go home”


        Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
             And it said “I know you’ve murdered

                          And I know you’ve lied
       And I've watched you suffer all of your life

         And now that you'll listen I'll tell you that I...”



                        I will love you for you
    Not for what you have done or what you will become
                        I will love you for you
    I will give you the love, the love that you never knew



                           Love you for you

      Not for what you have done or what you will become

                         I will love you for you

        I will give you the love, the love that you never knew



Song by: jj Heller, what love really means

Friday, July 29, 2011

Stalker 101: My new celeberty obsession.

Ryan Beatty is my new celeberty obsession. JUSTIN BIEBER you have been replaced! Just kidding, but ryan beatty is an amazing singer. I hope he gets far in the music world, because he deserves it. :)










He is beautiful.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Black & White

Please excuse me for my absence. I have been very busy working on a project for the past week or so.
I just barley re-modled my bedroom. It used to be blue and orange, and now it is Black and white! Black is such a classy color, so i painted one wall black and the rest white. My room looks good, and i am proud of my work! i will have pictures up soon!

thankyou(:

Monday, July 18, 2011

Stand out. Life's easier that way.

The other day i was having a hard time with my best friend. I didn't know what to do.. or who to turn to. Then another girl texted me and asked if  i was doing alright. You cannot lie to the world, and act like your alright. Because eventually you will crash and burn. So i told her i was not doing the best i could be. and she asked why? i told her what was happening with my friends, and she sent back something that really struck me hard. She said, "If you are worrying about what she thinks of you, and not about your self, and how your doing, then that's only going to bring you down"

Because of her, and what she told me that night, it had me BELIEVE that if you are worried what others think of you, your image, the way you talk, the way you laugh at something, then you aren't going to get anywhere. In order to feel good about yourself, you have to do the things that make you happy, not what pleases others. Everyone tries so hard to "fit in" or "blend in" well I believe the best way to do that is to stand out. People will love you for you. If you try to be someone your not, what are you going to do when you 25 and your not what you wanted to become, just because you were doing the things that others wanted and not what you wanted.

My advice for you would be: stand out. and SHINE. and I promise you will be happy with the people who accept you for YOU.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Light House. The hush sound.


"Lighthouse"

Take what you need while there's time
The city will be earth in a short while
If I'm not mistaken it's been in flames
You and I will escape to the seaside

There is a storm in the distance
The wind breathing warning of its imminence
There is a lighthouse five hundred yards down
You and I will be safe there

There is a girl who haunts that lighthouse
She saved me, I was swimming
So young I almost drowned
Under the water she sang a story
Of losing her lover
She calls a warning

Love, you are foolish, you're tired
Your sleeplessness makes you a liar
The city is burning
The ocean is turning
Our only chance is the lighthouse

Her lover was a sailor
She went and she waited there
The door locked from the outside
Lover never arrived so she sings there
Soft as a siren luring the ships off their course, how alarming

We went in, we climbed up and looked out
The door locked from the outside
Three ghosts in a lighthouse

Sunday, July 10, 2011

You Are The Other Part Of Me:

My friends make me who I am today. From our Numberless laughs, and Inside jokes to our countless sleepovers and nameless memories, I love them from their head to their toes. You all have inspiring traits and I admire you for them. Thank you Hannah Russell, Kylie Persson, and Erika Logan for being amazing people in my life.

One comes. One Goes.

Two Years Isn't that long.

      Or so I thought.

Two years ago my older brother left on his mission to the Roseville, California area. It was hard to watch him go, and now with him back I understand that missions change you. They change you for the better. The return missionaries are the same, but different. I am proud of my brother, and I know he will do great things in this life.

Ten days from now my other brother will be leaving to serve the Panama city, Panama Spanish speaking mission. Part of me is so excited for him, but the other part of me is so sad. I will miss him dearly, because he is a good brother and friend. He is one that is always close to my heart. I know he will be a great missionary and I think I'm secretly counting the days till he comes home.

Friday, April 22, 2011

The beggining of me.

Let me introduce myself, im all smiles. Summer's my time. Music's my jam. I play softball, piano, and i just started cheer! I'm so excited for what the future brings. This is the beggining of my blog, enjoy :)